he thinks of colorado, and the girl he left behind.
he said i wanna see you again
but i'm stuck in colder weather
maybe tomorrow will be better
can i call you then?
music seems to be the only way of expressing myself lately. and that's fine.
if he wanted to, he'd call. if he wanted to, he'd come to stillwater. if he wanted to, he'd make the effort. if he wanted to, he'd try everything he could to get me back. if he wanted to, he'd be here. if he wanted to, he would.
but he's not. so i'll just blog. and rant to you.
no one.
You can rant to me Jen. Your Daddy hears you and your Father hears you and our hearts break for you.
ReplyDeletepraying for you, jen. i know you don't know me, but i've had a heart for you since i began reading your mom's blog.
ReplyDeleteso sorry you're suffering. rant away.
Sometimes our hearts will mislead us. Our feelings can try to rule us. Our thoughts will lead us down the wrong path. BUT the Lord will speak and lead you in HIS ways. HE will Love you. HE will ALWAYS be by your side. HE hurts when you hurt.
ReplyDeleteYou are surrounded with so many who Love and Adore you. Who hurt WITH you and FOR you. Who are covering you in prayer. Who long to see you happy. Who KNOWS that God is preparing the way and some day you will find who HE is molding and shaping just for you. Who will show you what it means to be Loved, Cherished, Courted, Cared For, Honored and sooo much more.
I know God is mending your heart back into one piece and with each stitch I pray that not only will healing come, but a strength and an awareness of who you are and that NO ONE, I mean No ONE will ever be able to treat you like this again.
It's time you forget your feelings and to Remember What You Deserve!
What you have shared is so true.... IF. IF. IF. IF is a very powerful word when we allow our thoughts to get stuck on the What ifs'. One day at a time sweetie let go of the If's on that list. Allow God to make Rom 8:28 your testimony..... In ALL things God works good for those who love HIM and are called according to HIS Purpose!
Rom 15:13 ~ I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in HIM. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the poser of the Holy Spirit.
I love you Jenna ~ More than words could EVER express!
xoxo
thank you lori. i'm glad someone is reading.
ReplyDeletethank you mom and dad. love you both.