heartbreak warfare.

listening to john mayer is awesome. everyone go do it. every CD. none in particular. just go.



i loved today. my mommy came and hung out. and i just love her. and my life right now.

i went to church tonight and i feel amazing. god is so good.
thank you for everything in my life.
everything is gonna be okay.

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today was a good day.

for the most part! god seriously loves me and has given me so much mercy.
i got back to stillwater with like 15 minutes to get to class.
but that means i have to: find a parking spot, go up to my room and get my books, then walk to class.
def not enough time to do all these things.

so i parked at a store where the sign clearly said i would get towed, but i parked anyway.
i got to class right on time & after class i was driving around looking for an actual spot
and out of nowhere right up front someone starts backing out. thank you god.
so i got a nice spot, made it to class, and got all of my homework done.

now i'm sitting in a friends room watching tv & stopped to blog and let you guys know about my day.
if anyone cares. which is highly doubtful.

i love you tyler. if you're reading.

tears

i messed up. pretty badly. and it's all my fault.

and even though i can't fix it, i hope he knows i'm sorry. i love him to the moon and back and i'd give anything at all to help.


i hope that everyday to making my heart go back together goes by quickly and that i can understand why i would even do this. i want to talk to my best friend, but he is my best friend. he fixes everything. and i took that for granted.



i love you.

so.

as far as college goes.
i'm not enjoying it like i thought i would.



at all.


but i'm going to stick it out for awhile and come home more than i should just because i can. i just hate not having my family with me. i'm like a chicken with my head cut off without my mom. it's ridiculous. i'm trying to fight through tears while writing this, so i'm going to quit and tell you i'm in tennessee. but on monday i'll be back in stillwater. great.


goodnight.

you look like

a bunch of bird robots.



thank god for the direction in my life & that the lord has prepared the path for me.

you

there's john deere boots in my back seat.

i wish i could rewind summer.

the week before college

goes like this:
monday; i get my rylee girl, she's staying the night & i'm going to dinner for the last time with my trainer girls. ( so sad! )
tuesday; rylee will be here all day & my sister is coming for dinner.
wednesday; i'm getting my hair done & i'm going to dinner with my nanny and papa and my cousins.
thursday; i'm making my rounds around town to make sure i hug and kiss everyone i need to.
friday; i start pack up my clothes and going through my closet.
saturday; i'm going to see tyler at his dorm & then go to church.
sunday; finish packing & load up the car & get last minute items.
monday; MOVING DAY.



hopefully i'll stay busy and it will go quickly! going to miss home and my daddy's food.
but it's time to grow up! LETS GO!